My first thoughts
Upon waking up
I turn over
With a smile on my face
From the dream I had
I reach for you
Realization sets in
Only emptiness awaits
This crushing feeling
I try to breathe
But my heart catches
Skips a beat or two
Stuttering in time
A moment of loss
So painfully acute
This pitiful sound
Whispering in my ears
Travels the length of me
My whole body shakes
Tears trail down my face
I start to panic
You are not here
This enormous weight
So terrifyingly simple
I am alone
Crushing my soul
Who could live
With such a pain
The physical ache
Almost a ghost pain
This hope you left
My mind is spinning
My body is numb
I am so helpless
Slowing dying inside
Yet still alive barely
Your far away
I feel you near
In my heart
Your love fuels me
I exist here
Not really living

written by Unknown at 8:55 AM~Email Me~ [comment]

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I am lost in this place
Too scared to fly
So afraid to fall
I am stuck here
My guilded cage
The one I made for myself
Silently watching everything
My hope is entirely gone
I am screaming inside
No one cares to listen
Who would mourn me
Im afraid I have no one
I have pushed everyone away
Afraid to let people in
my rage is building
As so many people betray me
My heart is dying slowly
My faith in humanity shattered
Who do I believe in
How can this be real
Can I trust you
My mind struggles to grasp
Such a concept of faith
Where do I belong here
Time moves by so slowly
creeping by inch by inch
My life passes frame by frame
my will is slipping
my heart feels so heavy
who can carry such a burden
without it destroying them
i feel so cold inside
i hide myself from you
they are stuck on my illusion
the mask I put on
Today I will fight to live
Till my time here is done
Dont make it long please
I am ready to go home
and be gone from this place

written by Unknown at 12:08 AM~Email Me~ [comment]

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Your lips are on mine
Didn't spark nothing within
Although you did give it a go
I tried to feel what you were doing to me
As you passionately embraced me
A smile did form your face
As you asked if we could do this again
But my heart wasn't stirred
I didn't feel the magic inside
The moment where two souls connect
The moment when you know he is the one
Your eyes did shine like diamonds
Your words did make me laugh
Am I dead inside to feel so empty
Is there something wrong with me
I want to feel alive inside again
Get the butterflies in teh stomach
From one little look from you
Have my heart leap into my throat
As I get choked up with emotion
Get lost in your eyes
Feel the magic of your touch
Burn with desire for you
Have I lost the ability to love
Is my heart always going to pine
He has moved on with his life
Why cant I not move forward as well
Must I be alone forever never to love
I remember what it was like
Knowing the feeling of being safe
With you in my arms I am whole
These dreams are in the past
Where is my happy ending
Am I always to be only a mother
I want tro be somone's lover
Give myself to you with my whole being
With you I would never hide
I would make you feel my love
Not once would you ever doubt me
That I place you in my heart
You and no other
But alas this is just a dream
That will never be
I am still here sitting alone
And you have yet to discover me

written by Unknown at 12:05 AM~Email Me~ [comment]

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